faux pas
i did the stupidest thing yesterday. i wore a short, sleeveless dress to work. it was my aunt's old dress which had been hanging in my cupboard for so long and it's quite nice but i never wore it, so yesterday i decided to wear it. i totally forgot that i work for a very conservative government. when people wear stuff that don't comply to the dresscode, they usually wear their labcoat the whole day to cover it up. but i just walked in with my dress and then put on my labcoat as usual. everyone saw my dress. omg. how useless can my brain get. and i didn't even realise what i did til the end of the day when my friends told me i should keep my labcoat on as i was taking it off before going home. shit.
then last night i was so scared the whole night. like what if i get into trouble. or they suddenly enforce a stricter dresscode because i was so daring to go against it. and i even dreamt that everyone was talking about how stupid i am. damn scared. but then at work no one mentioned it so i hope they all just forget what i did. :(
noisy car
my neighbour's car is too sensitive. the alarm rings when there are loud sounds like thunder or fireworks. one afternoon a few weeks ago when i was trying to take a nap coz i was on night shift, there was thunder and the stupid car's alarm rang for almost one hour and i couldn't sleep. last night, there were fireworks for i-dunno-what-reason and the car alarm kept going off. every minute or so there would be one firework then the alarm would ring then the car owner would turn it off, then repeat. so annoying.
don't trust me
i almost tried to con a patient out of his gtn (heart pain medicine). i was dispensing and somebody had filled gtn which expired before the patient's next appointment. the patient noticed the expiry date and asked me about it. i told him oh nevermindlah, it's ok. but he still wanted new gtn. i asked if he used it often and he said no so i still said it's ok. then i realised, eh i should give him proper gtn la. so i went to get him new gtn. so blur la me. luckily he insisted. haha.
shit
i'm not smart enough to be a pharmacist. omgggggggg how the heck do people remember so many things. i can't remember anything.
and after 6 weeks in ipd, i haven't done a single diabetes counselling. my final week in ipd and i've only done 14 counselling. all inhalers except one warfarin. omg what have i been doing. everyday i just blindly fill and check what is filled. dispensing also i do too little. shit. anyone also can do my job.
